week, I'm very excited to turn my blog over to my friend and fellow writer,
Andrew Q. Gordon, whose book, Purpose, I
absolutely loved. I can't wait to read the new one. Andrew's new book, A Closed Door, is set to release today (October 8) by Wayward Publishing. Blurb
thirteen, Orin Merritt left home after high school hoping to escape
the hell his life had become. Ten years later when a tornado destroys his
childhood home and kills his parents, Orin finds himself in an entirely
new nightmare. One he can't run away from.
himself for failing the two people who always loved and supported him, he
returns home and confronts his past in the person of his one-time best friend,
Thomas Kennett. Thomas not only rejected him when Orin came out, he led
the group that tormented Orin into leaving.
As he struggles
to deal with his grief, Orin also labors to fulfill the pledge he made to his
parents before their death. In the process, Orin learns that
sometimes when you go away to find yourself, you leave the answers you're
looking for behind.
Cover Artist: Lily Velden and Jay Aheer
"Orin, I won't."
Thomas stood a bit straighter and his eyes lost the sad, pleading shine.
"I won't hurt you again."
"You can't promise
that. Things happen." Orin watched as his words dragged Thomas back from
the brink of hope.
"If you truly believe
that, then there's nothing I can do. You have to believe there's a chance or
else I can't prove it."
"That's not what I'm
telling you." He locked his gaze on Thomas's. "If I say yes, I'll
have to take down the walls I surrounded my heart with to keep it safe. Once
it's gone, I won't be able bring it back if I get hurt. Not now.
"So what I'm saying
is, think about what you’re asking me to risk. If you really love me, ask
yourself if are you willing to risk
what will happen to me if you can't keep your promise."
He knew how unfair he'd
been, but self-preservation had been a skill he'd honed over the past fifteen
years. He needed Thomas to know just how serious the repercussion could be for
"Orin, I . . . I . . .
how . . .?" Their faces were inches apart, and Thomas moved in for another
This felt different than
the first—less urgent, but no less intense. Orin trembled at the leap he was
about to take. When they stepped back, Thomas rubbed his thumb across Orin's
"I do love you, Orin.
More than I can say. So much, that I'm not willing to risk what will happen if
I fail you again. I don't have that right."
Thomas's lips quivered and
the tears welled at the bottom of his eyes. He kissed Orin's forehead gently.
Please be happy." Without looking back, Thomas walked to the front door,
opened it, and walked away.
Andrew Q. Gordon wrote his first story back when
yellow legal pads, ball point pens were common and a Smith Corona correctable
typewriter was considered high tech. Adapting with technology, he now takes his
MacBook somewhere quiet when he wants to write.
He currently lives in the Washington, D.C. area with his partner of eighteen years, their young daughter and dog. In addition to dodging some very self-important D.C. 'insiders,' Andrew uses his commute to catch up on his reading. When not working or writing, he enjoys soccer, high fantasy, baseball, and seeing how much coffee he can drink in a day.
On June 26, I quit my job. I immediately stopped doing three
things: setting my alarm, ironing clothes, and shaving. The next day I started Klonopin,
an anticonvulsant often prescribed to treat panic attacks and anxiety. Five
days later I sat in my doctor’s office and, in tears, admitted that for the
first time in I didn’t know how long, I felt like myself. He referred me to a
therapist and the work began. With no job, and a new book set to be released August 1, I
had nothing to do but work on myself and write. I needed to figure not only who
I was but who I wanted to be, what I wanted to do next. Writing was a part of
that. With the publication of my first book, What Binds Us, I was classified as a romance writer specifically
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with that definition quite frankly. My books have strong romantic elements but
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I’ll accept your condolences but please check your religion
at the door. And don’t talk to me of your God and His wisdom and mercy. Not today.
Not today. I believe in God, I do. But not today. Not today. Today, I feel He
abandoned me and my father when all I could do was hold his hand and rub his
head and tell him I loved him; when all his doctors could do was increase his
pain medicine and escalate the frequency with which he received them, and swab
his mouth with plain gelatin to make up for the water he could no longer drink,
the food he could no longer eat.
The first time I, went, alone, to visit dad in the hospital,
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walked in and asked who I was.
“I’m Larry, his middle son.”
“Oh, you’re the one who lives in Philadelphia!”
“Yes, how did you know that?”
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to the richest one percent. Over the weekend it was revealed Senator Bob Corker
changed his “no” vote to a “yes,” after a tax break that would hand him a
windfall of millions was snuck into the bill. As I ponder the current climate, a season of excess, a world
where greed is its own reward, and robbing the poor and middle class to enrich
the already wealthy drapes the robbers in gilt-edged robes of glory, I am
deeply disappointed. And afraid. Sure we’ve seen this before, most recently in the Reagan
area (who can forget Nancy Reagan wearing red and ordering 4,370 pieces of Lenox china (enough place
settings of 19 pieces for 220 people) at a cost of more than $210,000? Who can forget the halcyon days of “Dynasty” and the Carringtons,
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